March 1st, 2012 at 3:38PM

Today is that day that people talk about

I found myself saying aloud just now:

“I’m really glad I never succeeded at killing myself.”

I mean I haven’t attempted suicide in over ten years (my last attempt was at age 14), I haven’t even had Depression with the Big D since I was like 15 or 16 or something, but once you go through that it leaves a mark on you forever, you know?

But yeah.

Really glad I never succeeded.

Life is amazing and awesome and just gets more awesome every day.

It’s not been easy or a constantly-improving thing, it goes up and down like anything, but things sure did get better.

Even when I’m in a bad health slump like now, where I have trouble thinking and I can’t walk much and I’m in constant pain… I wouldn’t give it up for anything now.  This is my life, my body, this is my reality, and it’s beautiful.

  1. heatherbat said: <3 i’m glad you didn’t succeed, either. you bring a lot of happy into my universe.
  2. drunkneighbour said: I’m holding on :3 mostly out of spite for the whole world. You’re not gonna get the better of me, world! I am also glad we failed. <3 Ily so much
  3. curioandknickknacks said: As blunt as this may sound, I’m glad you didn’t succeed. You mean a lot to me, really. A really big amount.
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