Erinkyan

I’m really tempted to start saving reaction gifs (I don’t save them because I use up to four different devices to look at tumblr and I’m not gonna try and sync them all okay >:( altho I guess I could use dropbox or something) but never preview them and only name them by the reaction emotion.  so everytime I’d use laughing.gif or lol.gif or sobbing.gif or whatever I wouldn’t even know what I was posting until it posted.

I am easily amused ok shut up　

I think the dude who wrote about the love languages thing was really onto something.

I actually find it a really useful way to look at my relationships, but it occurred to me that I’d never really looked it on a personal, just-about-me-and-not-about-specific-relationships sort of thing… so I went and did the test thing on the website to see what it said, even though I already have a good idea on how I feel about love expression and stuff.

anyway I got quality time first (yep), with equal seconds physical touch and acts of service (lulz).  

seems pretty accurate to me.  touch is kind of a big deal to me but that doesn’t actually translate to me wanting to touch people I’m close to all the time, it actually means I tend not to touch people at all or like being touched unless they’re in a relationship with me or I’m playing with them.

service, well, lulz, of course.  even though I struggle with receiving service due to cripple angst it’s still one of the best ways to make me feel cared about.

and yeah, quality time, super important.  one of the annoying things about my life is that it means I don’t have millions of hours to spend with all my friends all the time :( boo.

anyway this was a rambly self indulgent post please feel free to ignore.

My kink toybag is already too small - I can’t carry around all my toys.  So I prioritize. Which actually means that my toybag has just become my rope bag, and even then I can’t fit all my rope into my rope bag.  Uh.

Anyway I need a bigger and better toybag.  My vampire gloves tend to live in my vest pocket.  My perspex paddle already lives in boy’s toybag because it doesn’t fit in mine.  My floggers and cane and cuffs and blindfolds and TENS unit and basically everything that isn’t rope just lives at home.

Also I need to get Lee to sew me a better rope bag, one I can sort my rope by length, diameter, colour and material in.  Because I’m a virgo shut up your face.  But also because my rope collection is worth over $1000 so there’s no reason not to pamper it okay >:|

This post brought to you by the fact I’m buying a violet wand next pay and I’ll need some way to carry it, haha.

he made me feel a lot better.

I feel much less anxious now.

:3

I must thank ottrifficaca for the phrase “another fucking growth experience”

sums up exactly where I’m at right now heh.

I wish I wasn’t such a stoic person when it comes to my sadness and pain.

I feel things very strongly but I am so bad at expressing myself when it comes to “I am hurting” sorts of feelings.

can I have a pet furry please

I am in le Canberra! Absolutely knackered. Hopefully sleep will come soon. Only have internet on phone and only briefly. But wooooo! Have been texting Cally lots 8D she’s trapped with me annoying her forever now! Muuahaha! Anyway yes. Hi! Lauren gets married tomorrow and so you can probably expect photos of me in mah suit. Yay! Ok that’s enough nonsensical rambling for now. Yaaaaaaaaay 8D

but feeling a lot better.

went and visited bff and hung out a bit and it was good.

back to work now I guess.

but my brain is all bwuhh what is work can i eat it

and playing with people’s hair

and running my fingers through it

:|

haters gonna hate